August 14, 2004
Status: Going Down in A Blaze of Glory

How do you like it? HAHAHA. I hope it came out well since im a blog spaz. And that's another thing BLOG, who thought of that one? hahaha.
Okay since this is a BLOG (hahaha), i guess I should write down personal life experiences *yawn* The only interesting experience that had happened so far was be getting two B's in one day. That's like the odds of you surviving being locked up in a prison cell full of sexually-deprived musclemen. haha! B-day beybe!!!
Antoher thing to be noted was that GHOSTS has reached an astonishing 12 chapters without collapsing! Back then, it collapsed by chapter 9 but version 2 seems to be coming off well. I dont want to think that it is good as it is because this IS just a first draft and first drafts aren't supposed to be pulitzer winners right away :) (u know how much it sucks to not use smileys when ur a really happy person? ugh)
Aside from that, the "conflict" is beginning to resurface. Old hatreds have begun to manifest themselves in college even after 5 years time. Glenn and Stanley are at it again and though they are part of the overnight gang, having an overnight with them around will just cause more problems. Frankly, nobody really likes having Glenn around cuz he doesn't really bend for other people. It's sad but somehow true. Why does he want an overnight? Dunno, no clue. Does he want to have the temporary high of being with friends? cuz he couldn't have some of his own? to let go of his insecurities for just that moment? Never really thought about it for the past 5 years but that may be it. Yes, he has a sad life but I tried to help but I can't fish him out of the emotional hell he dug himself into and with Stanley and him going at it, I'm doubting the overnight gang will gather for the sem break...
Funny how things go. Your greatest rival turns out to be a person lost of confidence. Joshua put it the best, "The guy suffers from both a superiority and an inferiority complex". No wonder lots of people quit on him and why he has no "true" friends. And here I am, in the middle of it all. Haaaay... wonder if things would be different if I had cut him off 3 years ago.

Posted by Tmat on August 14, 2004 at 08:43 AM | Add a Comment